Lemondrop

Ugg

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 13:59:53 GMT

Ok so this has been the week from hell! My mom was put back into the hospital. It's not all that good but she's doing better now to make a long story very short. Last night I was dumped because I'm not marriable. Still confused about that one. Is there anyone out there that can actually give a girl an orgasm cause he could never do it for me?

Goodbye!

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 22:47:55 GMT

There is now one less virgin in the world!!

Hello Everyone!

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 04:06:07 GMT

Damn it's been a while. Hope no one forgot me. It's been so freakin long but here is a very short update. I bought my condo and I love it. I just finished painting some trim and I've banned from ever painting again since I'm such a freakin klutz and fell off a step stool, hurt myself and spilled paint all over the place. I've pretty much got everything exactly how I want it. I'm going on a much needed vacation in about a week which could not get here soon enough. Work is good. Life is good!

big things

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 20:12:59 GMT

Wow it's been a long time. I'm taking a major step in life and I'm buying my own place. The queen of indecision is stepping up to make a huge one. It's an adorable 2 bedroom condo close to everything important. They have accepted my offer and are willing to pay my rent for me to close early plus my closing costs, warranty and 3% down. I'm very excited. I just have to get it inspected and if everything looks good I'll be a homeowner March 15th. Holy shit I'm a grown up now with responsibility. Scary thought but a good one. Wish me luck!

life

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 15:55:53 GMT

I know I don't post very often at all anymore. Things are going generally going rather well in life at this point. I've been going out a little more and god forbid i'm being somewhat social these days. Carrie has a new male interest in her life and she seems to be happy. He's a nice guy and it's just cute to see her all giddy. I'm happy for her. Some of my friends are trying to set me up with someone at work. He's a nice guy but there are some big red flags. First of all he has 3 kids. One child I can handle, 2 is pushing it but 3 is alot. Second, I found out he's not divorced yet just separated. So last night I started to analyze myself. It's bad enough when other people analyze me but when I do it it's even worse. I have a pattern. I like people that I have no chance with. When I find someone I who likes me, I tend to get scared find something wrong and that's it. I don't give them a chance. I think at this point i just need more guy friends. Just someone to hang out with maybe watch some sports on sunday or just someone i can talk to. I don't know. I hate it when I think to much and over analyze myself. I like my life, I like who I am, and I like the people in my life. That's all I need right now

my birthday

Sun, 18 Jul 2004 23:46:04 GMT

Well I'm officially another year older today as of 10 this morning. We had a birthday party for me last night which was a lot of fun. We had some friends from work and family over. It's always fun meeting your brothers new girlfriend for the first time drunk off your ass. She's cool and I like her. The big fun of the night was my friend Roger giving me a 7 inch anal dildo. No one knew it was an anal one until my brother pointed that out. Eventually I got hit in the eye with the flying dildo which was funny as hell. Carrie ended up getting sick, threw up and passed out while everyone else jumped in the pool at 1. It was great. This morning I woke up not feeling great at all but I didn't get sick which works for me. Today I hung out with my brother for a bit and laid out by the pool just relaxing which is what I needed. Those are just a basics of what happened. There are several funny quotes from last night which i might add later. Hope everyone is great!

Sat, 15 May 2004 07:03:08 GMT

ok so here is another drunk post from yours truly and i'm trying to type the bestest that i can so bear with me....why am i shcuh an idio t? I put myself ou t htere and get rejected 2 times in one night. am i that horrib;e? i'm just pissy and drunk sorry ignore me adn this post

question

Sat, 08 May 2004 06:21:56 GMT

Ok so here is my question...why am i such a chicken shit???

Moving sucks

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 15:55:10 GMT

Ok so a big thanks to everyone who helped us move. I still cannot move. My cat finally came out of hiding only to be chased back between the walls by carrie's insane crack kitty. I can't think so that's it for now. Oh and Kayt the answer is still NO!

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 08:43:12 GMT

hello everyione it took me a while to figure out how to use this freakin thing again but i figured it out. I hope everyone is having a wonderful everything and that life is great. I'm drunk off myh ass and tying to type and sound halfway like a human. Ugggg I have to pack shit tomorrow cause if i don't someone will yell at me :o(

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 06:11:36 GMT

Today was really fun.
I got out of bed my cat snores

I feel unusual because my antidepressants are making me hairy.

I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and I stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Good Charlotte CD, a couple of DVDs and some new boots. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth.

Last night I had to shave my entire body. Apparently, the lice that I caught from Amanda's friend are really hard to get rid of. I look quite strange with no hair and eyebrows. I'd post pictures, but my webcam is broken.

I want to tell the world to get fucked.

I am really annoyed with those assholes at _are_you_hotter_than_us_?, because I am so much cuter than them, and those photos don't do me justice. They can't reject me, so I'm starting my own rating community. Click here to join (the first five applicants are automatically accepted).

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's ten thousand photographs of my cat.

I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go.

You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you who you're sexually compatible with.

Carrie is a bad influence!!

That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with help me i'm insane i'm moving in with this sexual freak

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Sun, 14 Mar 2004 00:20:14 GMT

Is it bad that I went out with one guy who paid for everything and ended up going home with another guy? Just curious!

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 22:38:27 GMT

Wow it's been a while since I've updated this thing. Life has been good. I had an excellent weekend in Lafayette. It started off with someones 21st birthday so of course that meant going to a strip club. It was my first time going and maybe it was this club but it wasn't all that great. Of course everyone thought it would be a great idea for me to get a front row view with dollars so of course I get boobs in my face. The girls were nice about it so it was all good. I ended up meeting someone through my friends and he called today so it's good. It was a much needed getaway. I went shopping and bought a fish. This poor thing doesn't have a chance in hell considering i forgot to take the damn thing home and had to turn around to get him.

Everything else is going well. I just started a new job with Carrie and training is going really well. I'm making a lot of new friends and beat a former NBA player in a game of horse. That was the funniest thing ever. Ok enough about that I'm done!

It's been a while....

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 22:33:08 GMT

I have not posted in quite a while. A lot has happened. Working one job is so much better. I actually have time to myself. I have done a lot of soul searching I guess you could say and I'm at a point where I am finally comfortable with myself and who I am. I'm getting to the point of being confident. It's a nice change.

Over the past few months, I've been to disney world which was absolutely great. My best friend got married there and I kinda got a makeover which helped me gain some of my new confidence. At MGM Eric, Jeanine, Beau and I got chosen to take part in the back lot tour where we had to reenact pearl harbor and yours truly was one hell of a captain. The reception was so much fun too. I drank a tequila worm which I am quite proud of and I had some cristal and that was so good.

I did make one big purchase and I got a new car. I bought a 2001 Hynudai Elantra and I love it. It's put me in the Christmas spirit. I have most of my presents bought and wrapped already and my tree is up. I'm meeting Carrie and she's almost here so that's all for now!!

Thu, 28 Aug 2003 03:28:12 GMT

I was so excited today because for once I actually won something. We had a contest at work and I ended up winning something somehow and I got chocolates delivered to me from Harry and David's which is the greatest chocolate I've had in a long time. It just sucks that I was nice and shared with a couple people but I still have my stash. I also got a cool pen too. I never win anything so I hope this means my luck is changing even though I had to work 4 hours at ATA Grrrrr! I'm trying to get approved for some apts further south that will be closer to work and I hope i get approved cause it's a 2 bedroom townhouse it i'm lovin it so far. I'm all excited for some reason. I think i've had too much chocolate :o)

Thu, 21 Aug 2003 01:39:47 GMT

Things are going pretty well for a change. It's pretty nice. My mom had surgery this week and everything went well. Today she found out that her kidney problem in not genetic so me and my brother don't have to worry about inheriting it. She was so relieved she cried. It's one less major thing I have to worry about. I finally got to relax yesterday and have human interaction outside of work. I hung out with carrie and went swimming. It was fun but for some reason lately I've just been feeling kinda alone. I don't know why. It will pass but for now it just somewhat sucks.

brickyard

Mon, 04 Aug 2003 01:10:07 GMT

My weekend was pretty good. After work on Saturday I headed home because my bank if fucking retarded but I got to see my mom. She's just insane. All of her medications have her so fucked up. She's just funny. I miss her. I came back and went to Brickyard today with someone from work and it was just so much fun. I got to see Junior and he's so lucky that there was a 30 foot fence in front of me cause I would have been all over that boy. He's yummy! I did not get burnt as bad as I did last year but I'm a little tan and a little red. I forgot to put sunblock on my nose so it's a little fried. I got harassed by my supervisor's husband. He thinks he needs to see my boobs now. Those two are just so hilarious. I learned why you should never drive on the west side when there's a race. Traffic is a bitch! Oh well I had so much fun and now i'm exhausted and starving. I need to eat

date

Thu, 31 Jul 2003 00:50:17 GMT

Ok so today was somewhat interesting. Ok so there's this guy at the bank and his name is Micah. Well, I had to do the deposit today so we talked and that was fine. Later I get a call from him at work. He got into our files at the bank to get our number there. Well, he asked me how much a membership is and then he asks me what i'm doing tonight. We end up going shoe shopping cause I have to buy shoes. Things were good at first we were joking around and all. We start talking about things and sports and somehow we get on the subject of gays and he's homophobic which kinda bothers me because some of my good friends are gay. I just keep going and I finally find a pair of shoes and I had to call Carrie cause I needed some advice and he came up behind me and scared the shit out of me and I squealed like a pig. I turned so red. He kept touching me and rubbing my back but it just didn't seem right. I don't know what it is. It's probably just me. He kept wanting me to show him where i lived and trust me I learned a big lesson about that. I don't know. What's wrong with me? Why do I freak out and give up so easily? I'm hopeless!! Help me

Sat, 26 Jul 2003 18:31:12 GMT

My life has been so full of ups and downs lately. My birthday was great and I had fun seeing my friends again but it just wasn't the same and my balloons flew out the car window. My mom ended up losing her job because some medication she's on causes her legs and feet to swell up to 3 times their normal size and she couldn't wear shoes or anything so that's not a good thing. They are letting her work a few hours a week now and I guess that's better than nothing.

Jeanine and Beau came to see me at work and that was great. I found my dress for the wedding and I got it ordered. I hate buying a $100 dress that I'm never going to wear again. The alterations are going to be $80 and I just can't justify that in my head so hopefully I can get someone else to do it for me. I do get to go to disney world and share a room with a hottie. Weee i'm excited about that!

Yesterday shit just kinda hit the fan. My day started off good. I had to do paperwork which means I go to the bank to do the deposit. Well there is this boy named micah and he's really nice but I thought he was gay. Well, I guess he's not and now he wants to show me around Indy. Of course I freak out. I don't know why so i have to get up the nerve to tell him yes. Then things just went down from there. I have been working at AAA full time and then ATA part time to keep the benefits. Well yesterday aaa tells me that I'm going to be forced to choose between the two because it's a conflict of interest. What the fuck? It hasn't been an issue before this so why is it now? I resent them for putting me in a position of forcing me to choose. I would understand if i saw a conflict of interest but I don't. I just have a lot to think about.

On the flip side I did win a $10 bet with Carrie! Woohoo I'm rich!

Wed, 16 Jul 2003 01:26:28 GMT

My new job is going really well. I'm really starting to like it. I'm still working at ATA part time so that I can keep my free flights. It's just to good to let go. I almost had an extra 300 bucks in my bank account because of a payroll error but I had to open my big mouth.

Things are going good. My best friend is coming down thursday cause I have to find a bridesmaid dress. Yuck! I can't find anything that fits but she's getting married in disney world and I get to go. It will be a nice break. Then Angel is coming down Friday for my birthday. I'm all excited. I just have no idea where to go. I could use suggestions. I just hope things continue to go well.

Tue, 08 Jul 2003 23:51:23 GMT

I would just like to say that I'm sick of these storms. I hate them and they scare me which makes it worse cause I'm all alone. Oh well I guess I will survive. Yesterday did not go as bad as it could have. I'm glad Carrie went with me cause I could not have done it alone. I did freak out at one point and hid in the bathroom. I finally get the nerve to go up to the casket and I hear my name being whispered and someone say that it was her sister (yes I have a long lost sister) the only thought running through my head was I have to get out of here. I stand at the casket and scurry out of there. I get to the door and I think I'm home free until my little niece chases me down to ask if I was me. I was so close getting out of there without being noticed so I had to go back and talk to Tonya. It was awkward and we exchanged info. My little nephew is one funny little guy. I got the nerve up to ask if my dad was there and Tonya said that he wasn't coming because he's afraid of funerals. Well my nephew Dylan (i think that's his name) said that he thought my dad wasn't coming because he was afraid to be arrested for back childsupport. I wanted to bust out laughing and Carrie almost did. I got to meet a few aunts and I saw an uncle who happens to be a state representative.

I decided I needed to do some therapy shopping so I did. I spent a little too much but I deserved it. I got to see Brock and talk to him for a few minutes which was nice. I wanted to buy a sex book but they didn't have sex for dummies :o(

Oh and Carrie's luck is rubbing off on me...I got hit on today too!

past issues

Mon, 07 Jul 2003 12:50:08 GMT

Ok so today I'm going to have to face so issues that I am not ready to exactly deal with. My grandmother on my dad's side of the family died and I am suppost to go to the viewing today. I only met her a few times when I was 17. Most of his side of the family have never met me and I know my dad will be there and I don't want to see him. I met him for the first time when I was 17 and he was drinking. I need to show my respects but I can't deal with him if he plays like he's the perfect daddy. I'm not ready to deal with this part of my life yet. I dealt with it a few years ago and I thought that was over but I guess not. I'm just confused on what I need to do.

Sat, 21 Jun 2003 14:52:52 GMT

Just when I think things are finally working my mom calls me to tell me her dialysis isn't working and that she needs a kidney transplant asap. She didn't want to tell me on vacation. Why can't things go the way I want them to for once? I'm going home now to talk to her and pick up my kitty

it was the best of trips it was the worst of trips

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 15:12:27 GMT

I finally made it back home. I never thought I would say that I'm glad to be back. I never made it to Hawaii but San Francisco was great. I figured out the bus system and went the the golden gate bridge and saw alcatraz. It was pretty cool. My friend had to go shopping so we stopped at Armani and had a drink in the middle of the store and it was the best drink i've had in a while. We were going to leave that day but before we left we met up with some guy in the lobby who said he would show us around the city. We went to the airport anyway but ended up staying and I even got my hottie security guard to go out with us. Somehow the guy we met in the hotel was moving some guy out of an apartment. Well, the apartment was worth 2.8 million dollars and was owned by an original member of the chicago bears. The view not to mention the apartment were amazing. The bathroom actually had a red light setting and that was interesting. Things just progressively get worse. Everything was fine that night. The other guy who stayed was with my friend ended up staying the night. That would be fine as long as I didn't have to wake up to them having sex which I specifically asked her not to do. I was pissed which just made yesterday in the airport torture. All of our flights were booked to get home and then when we finally get on one it had mechanical problems so we end up getting into chicago at 4 in the morning and then I didn't get on the flight to Indy but my friend did so I stayed behind at the airport. I really didn't mind because she was really really annoying me. I will NEVER travel with this girl again. All and all it was a good time. I'm not disappointed that I never made it to hawaii because I got to see and do things I never thought I would. I didn't want to leave but I'm glad to finally get to sleep in my bed and see the sun.

Wed, 18 Jun 2003 15:58:31 GMT

Ok so it's almost time to check out of the hotel so I figured I would post one last time using the crappy webtv thing. I think we are going around the city and then I have no clue as to what I'm going to do. I might come home or I could end up in new york or boston maybe even a beach in florida just as long as it's warm! This spontanious thing is pretty fun especially when you get sleep and no one is cranky anymore tata